SHE's a GIFT 4 ME - Ma SIS LOPA (MOU)!!

Three years ago, i got admitted into a course which i had never thought getting into! Irrespective of what the institution was and the level of recognition that it had outside North-East. My admission was full of rough patches. Why? Well i guess that does not matter anyway now, because i have not got along with something great after passing out from that 'place' (yes, that was sarcastic). But what i want to reveal here is my encounter with a girl who has the most special place in my heart today. (Disclaimer - she's not ma girlfriend, O sorry, ma ex-girlfriend) My first day in ASSAM UNIVERSITY's Mass Communication Department was a little weird. Well, another very surprising fact of my life - my first impression sucks!!! So, all of you can of course recall now what you had thought of me when you first met me. So, when i entered the Library room of our department, three girls and some guys were kind of bamboozled with my entry!! Well, for those who know me, i guess you all know that i may never change me grandpa hair style!:) Well, i tried once, but believe me, i was looking like a piece of shit. After looking at me for quite a while, a pretty lady commented that i won't look bad if i 'spiked' my hair and wore a black framed specs...Ok, well i didn't know that it was a compliment or sarcasm. But at least someone convinced me that 'hey, you can try this!' So, i took it as a compliment. I really don't want to talk about the other girls, because they are not a part of my life any more and moreover, they treated ma sis like a shit. So, better not let the devil speak now. As days passed by, we became good friends. We laughed, yelled, debated and sang aloud while our classes were over. 


Most of the ladies in our class brought their tiffin along with them, and that too home-cooked. Can't get better than this, huh! Me and my friends often dived into their food and sometimes, almost cleaned up their tiffin..ha ha!! That was real fun, but the ladies(gals) were really sweet. They knew we were hungry, so they almost surrendered their tiffin to us looking at our panting faces. For me, Lopa's tiffin was always special. I can't decipher the reason behind that, but i guess there was a special ingredient of love that was mixed in her food. That made her tiffin really special, at least for me. One day, when we were relieved from the torture of listening to one of our lecturers, i was looking for my wallet. I knew about one thing that in this class, there were people who could steal your notes, but money, naah! Then a sweet voice asked me - 'is this yours?' I said yes. She did not look that interested in my wallet or the stuff inside it. She was a little curious about a small passport-sized photo that i always kept with me for my safety and well-being - photo of THE MOTHER or 'MAA'. She asked me 'how the hell did this photo come in your wallet?" I explained to her that my entire family is devoted to her and her spiritual thoughts. She was quite surprised and said that her family was also an ardent follower of Shri AUROBINDO and Shree MAA. This was a beautiful co-incident for me. She was somehow my sister and i realised the fact there itself. Well, she was really pretty and had this incident happened sometime later...i would say, MAA wanted this to happen and so it happened. She would be the right person to explain as to why did this relationship turn that way. But i must say that she is the biggest and the most precious asset of my life today. I just can't imagine my life without this girl.


It just took two years to tighten this relationship in such a way that no hammer in the world today has the balls to break it. Lopa was the one who made me realise that i can be what i want. Crazy girl...she made me even dance!! She taught me to be a little open to the world. Well i am still tryin to be! Her mom never made me fell lonely or away from home food. I miss her mouth watering dishes today, badly! Yummm.........I saw Lopa dance, cry, yell, smile, laugh aloud and fart...and that too while laughing. Well, that was not weird for me. But i had to hold on to my laughter while that 'firing' happened. But i must say one thing, if you guys see her dancing..you may not stand and clap for her, but you will definitely go and hug her. By MOTHER's grace, she's the most graceful dancer i have ever seen in ma life. The most bleak moment for me is when i see or listen her sobbing. I just feel so helpless when i see those tears rolling down her bubbly cheeks. Whenever i am with her, i always try and console her with whatever bull shit i can and i did that for a couple of times. But now, i guess i proved to be the biggest ass brother or friend that a girl can have in her life. 


I last met her on JULY, 2010. Since then, i am just dying to meet her once. She has already been through a lot within this one and a half year, but she's still the same LOPA i know. I often start cribbing on my shitty life, but when i think of her, i just get ashamed of myself. She's has been an actual fighter for me. Each and everyday, i pray to the ALMIGHTY that let all her hardships come to me and let all my happiness be bestowed to her. Because that's what all i can do for her right now. I have been unable to console her in the most difficult period of her life by being physically present along side her and for that i will never be able to forgive myself. Every beat of my heart longs to see her, but unfortunately the time has not come yet! I have always said this and i will keep saying this that GOD has send me a beautiful gift and i will always be thankful to HIM for this. I will toil hard to preserve this gift till my last gasp of existence on this earth. Hey SIS, if you are reading this, this is just a small token of gift from my side to let you know, once again that one day, when you will be a star, there would be millions of fans all around you, but there will be one man who will always want to see her sister with that sweet and cuddling smile coming towards him running and giving him a big hug to let the world stay amazed after looking at the love and respect that both of them have for each other. 

OUT OF THE NOSTALGIC BOX!!!

Near about eleven months ago, i set on a journey to the capital city of my country with my friends. All of us knew that things were not gonna be easy for us in a place like Delhi. For me, it was way more difficult thing. I never even ventured in ma dreams that i would come to a place like Delhi - though it sounds really really immature, but that's what the reality was!! I never knew that i would end in the 'EXTREME CITY' of the Indian sub-continent. While in the AC coach of the RAJDHANI EXPRESS, all of us were pondering on just one fact - what the heck were we doing? Why we were going to that place where millions of people do not bother about anyone....how are we gonna end up getting a job in a place like Delhi? How yar, how? Well, that was a kinda thoughtful thought....but there are other facets to this idea also.

I really don't want to scratch out the controversial facts about the academic tornadoes that victimised us in both positive and negative ways, but i will definitely say and state this that we expected a lot, actually too much, and so.....m here!! As usual, people who will dare to go through this trash will have different kind thoughts based on some good, damn good justifications. But let me tell you something, i am not that ass as i sound or look to be. Some people may disagree because they might be in the world of satire and sarcastic imagery of so the called bull-shit of mine, and of course they may be having some other kind of thoughts in their mind which they don't want to vent up. Well its ok, i m used to that...u know, the typical mute "F*** U" statement. I am sorry for being a little harsh, but u can't expect from a 25 year old guy to be a saint with heaps of 'shit in life' being dropped occasionally on the door of his vulnerable psychology.

After bumping our asses on our respective shelters in the capital, the hunt for job was the greatest challenge for us. So, we did start our hunt. Some of us did get stuck on at least something respectable, but for some of us it was a 'anything for money story'. There are many reasons to it which i do not want to decipher. They are again, quite controversial, and being bad guy these days, i do not want to add to my woes anymore. As far as my job story was concerned, i ended up in a BPO. Well i know that it is nothing new, but i don't know why, BPOs always kinda attracted me from ma college days itself. When i joined one of the top BPOs of Delhi, i was really excited. But i had no idea about the other side of the story. Yes i had heard about the BPO girls and the halter-skelter lifestyle that the BPO employees are forced  into, but i was shocked after realizing the fact that we were mere 'naukars' for the first world nations who had no idea about mobile phone Sim cards and those pricks didn't even know to open a phone and put the Sim card inside it. It seemed like we were paid to listen to their bull shit. So, one day i decided to say to myself and to the job - 'that's it' and move on to some other decent job.

No doubt i got one, but unfortunately i m a human being too. My wants are also unlimited. So, i too want to get something better....but damn, the same old ifs and buts just do not want to stay away form ma life. I had many other things to blabber, but i think it would not be a good idea to reveal anything and everything about ma life...o i will, i will....don't you worry...but that won't be now!!!!!

SMELL OF NASCENCE!!!

Hmmm...I was thinking what do i write in my newly created blog so that i can draw some eyeballs in it. And then i came to know that there is so much happening in and around me that there can be a long list of those weird events. And which i can share with you all guys. See, i am a movie freak. So, whenever i get to write something of my own, i always pen down my views about a movie that i watched recently. After coming to Delhi, job was the biggest hunger. Now that i have got one, though not that much to be hyped for, but it is quite enjoyable about what i am doing right now.

The last film that i watched was "NO ONE KILLED JESSICA", a film by Rajkumar Gupta of 'AAMIR' fame. I watched 'AAMIR' for at least ten times and it still appears to me one of the most hair raising flick that i have ever saw. I know that you people might be surprised by the fact that i have found 'AAMIR' so much interesting inspite of the fact that the film was not that much talked about. But what i liked in the movie was its immaculate closeness with real life situations and images. The locations, the pace, the storyline, the background score was a breath of fresh air for people like me who were fed up with watching typical bollywood masala films. Ooops!! sorry Salman, no more bollywood, Infi or Indian Film Industry!!!??? But guys 'AAMIR' was a different take on the burning issue of "Islamic Terrorism" in India. I would not talk much about it because i do not want to get into any kind of controversy. Talking about NOKJ, Rajkumar Gupta was unable to deliver the magic that 'AAMIR' created in the silver screen. Yes, it is obvious that a story like 'Jessica Lall Murder Case' which has been memorized by heart by the people of our nation, putting it into celluloid will always seem to be a interesting affair. But the kind of adrenaline that 'AAMIR' created, NOKJ fails to do so. The first half of the film was really riveting with some stunning performances from Vidya Balan. 2nd half was all about Rani. She was ravishing, but we expected a more ripping performance from her side. The background score was excellent. The close-up shots and the tracking movement of the camera that was so much used in the earlier film of Rajkumar, was missing here. That was part of the reason why NOKJ did not appeal to me a lot. But yes, i must say that it must have entertained the audience a lot, but not me!!! What do you say???

ITZ TYM!!

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